My sincerest apologies to all readers of this newsletter for the lack of content last week. My parents were in town which is kind of a chic way to describe being stressed and busy. When your parents are even within a mile of you, you automatically regress to who you were in middle school. Not even high school, not even the iconic time of summer after senior year when absolutely nothing matters and you savor every second like it’s your last. I miss my high school friends and as much as I love my fabulous life in New York City, New York; I miss the memories and the times in Los Angeles, California.
My friend from elementary school to high school to now was in town and we hung out and reminisced on all the people in our life that we consider celebrities but perhaps would never even know we were talking about them. There’s merit to familiarity at all times and sometimes I forget that and often I am grateful for the anonymity that living in NYC provides. I think you can relish in familiarity when it’s there and escape to anonymity when it’s not. There are people I see every day who have no idea I exist, and people who see me everyday but remain strangers.
I am having trouble writing this because of extreme writer’s block and burnout. I am not a person who ever really gets burnt out, I have a big plate and I like to keep it full — busyness fuels me. Isn’t the word busyness weird? I want to write it as business, which is its own word. I haven’t had a creative thought in weeks, but that’s ok.
I moved into a new apartment which is very adult and grown up and it’s exciting to me. Being in a dorm is a far too common circle of hell and I’m so happy to not be in that anymore. It’s extremely hot so I spend way too much time indoors which I hate, and is maybe why I am having this burnout and writer’s block. I took this weekend to try and relax and do absolutely nothing (I went out twice and spent my Sunday working on a project, so epic fail) and started watching HBO’s Girls which is a funny show and I don’t care if it’s problematic! I wish I could watch every TV show ever and have the cultural knowledge, but I don’t have time and I find myself rewatching the classics (Modern Family and Gilmore Girls) on a loop. I want to be a Bravo Girl and a Love Island Girl but also an Aaron Sorkin Girl. There are way too many shows and quite frankly, not enough time.
My Co-Star told me that drinking more water will be the start of solving my problems which makes me not believe in astrology because I am always extremely hydrated and I love water. I have a bone to pick with every restaurant in New York. They are all addicted to serving room temperature water which is a temperature of water that is never enjoyable. I think it’s so stupid the way that straight boys think astrology is stupid, they think it’s such a personality trait to not believe in the stars.
I think BeReal is a really cool app and I wish that celebrities were on it and public about being on it. I don’t really care about any celebrities that much but I feel that we should hold them accountable through the app. It’s the only good form of social media with the exception of when people are only nice and funny on Twitter.
This newsletter is not very good and I have left all of you with nothing for the past two weeks and I’m sorry that this is what I am giving you. I am really experiencing a huge writer’s block and dealing with crazy burnout and it will get better. If you have ideas or things I should write about, please let me know via the various forms of communication we all use as modern people. Goodbye for now and see you next week (I hope!).
xoxo
